Gotta Keep Trying 2

[Hope4us]

W worked on a cake for her 2nd cake client tonight while I watched football. We talked all the while, with me asking questions about her cake, frosting, etc. She put some of the icing she made on a fork and handed the fork to me. When I took it, our hands touched briefly. Nice. Fleeting, but nice.

W was happy and upbeat (just like me) tonight. We are able to have really nice discussions about just about anything. Well, R hasn't come up, but everything else is good.

I still feel like I'm making progress, or should I say WE seem to be making progress. I don't know how to describe it, but each night we seem to be inching a little closer to one another - it just shows in the way she talks to me.

Another interesting thing is she is quick to explain things I believe she perceives I could take the wrong way. For example, today, she had sent me several messages via IM and email from her PDA. They were hung up on the ISP's provider, so I never got them. When she realized they had not gone through, she was quick to send me an email through her PC letting me know about the problem. Then, when I got home tonight, she wanted to show me her PDA to prove the messages did not go through. I never once complained about not getting any messages, and I have been upbeat and happy.

I just notice things like this now, and they seem to be happening more often.

Anyone else have a similar experience?

GIMA, Yes, this is progress. The fleeting touch is GREAT. Slowly keep that kind of stuff going. No Pressure touching when you get a chance.

And YES, My W started throwing little things out there when I wouldn't even have thought twice about them as if she was trying her best to be open with me. Two examples: One time she was on her way home from work and thought she had a tire going flat. She stopped at the gas station to check it out. She TM'd me to let me know why she was a little late coming home from work. She only ended up being about 10 minutes later than normal, but I wouldn't have thought twice about it because sometimes she gets caught up doing work and ends up working 15, 20, 30 minutes late. It seemed like her way of reassuring me.

Second example. There have been a couple times when she's said things to me about some calls she's received on her cell phone. We don't have a home phone, just cell phones, but one time a friend of her's cell phone died so she was using her H's phone and W made sure she pointed that out to me. I haven't looked at the cell bill in a long time, but I think she wanted me to know if I saw a weird number IF I looked that that was why it was there. She also points out to me when she gets weird calls from telemarketers etc so if I look I don't worry about it.

All in all, good stuff. If she's trying to reassure you that she's being honest, she recognizes that and it trying to regain your trust.

Like someone said on my thread one time, guilt is a M-F'er. Don't underestimate just how much she might be struggling with it.