Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I've been having a hard time feeling detached this week. I feel more like throwing the !@$@ing rope than dropping it.

Last night W was talking about signing S up for a couple of different extracurricular activities for this upcoming school year. I mentioned that one of the classes sounded like more fun than another when she asked my opinion. It was the more expensive of the two so I quickly rethought my position and said, "W we're really going to have to watch our pennies now."

She flew off the handle

"What's that supposed to mean? I asked you about this before and you were OK with it!" I tried to resist the bait and responded, "I am OK with him taking a class but now that we're going to have two households to cover with the same amount of income I think that we should go with the cheaper one."

She got all STRONG and DEFENSIVE. I HATE when she turns into this person. She makes a point to turn it into a me against you, defend myself like I'm being attacked issue.

"Don't you think that I know we're going to have less money.? You don't need to explain it to me!" She said. And she proceeded to be a distant jerk for a while.

I told her that this wasn't a me against you thing. I'm not attacking you and I don't appreciate you being defensive against me. I simply rethought my first opinion because I realized that we are going to be strapped since she is BUYING A SECOND HOUSE. She couldn't leave it alone and kept saying, "don't you think I get that" and "it sounded like you were explaining it to me."

I'm so sick of measuring every word with her. I'm sick of not having a wife. I'm sick of being the turn the cheek nice guy every day. I'm sick of watching her act like a teenager with her girlfriend!

This all seems so stupid to me still. She talks about feeling lonely. WTF...you're choosing to be alone! I'm sitting right here!!!!

Hope - you're right. It was bait. She hasn't had a reason to paint me as the bad guy in a while, so she's reaching for ANYTHING to make herself feel more justified.