Thanks ladies will put some more thought into it today!

At the beginning he went for two weeks then two individual weekends popping back to see me saturday, that was nice but actually I have been better not seeing him for four weeks, it has made me GAL and become more fufilled doing my 180's. Ironically I have actually benefited using some of the 180's on my S (21), but then after all he is a man/boy lol.

I know that H is probably coming just to pick up some things he needs, a new bank card for a start, and of course he wants to go to the train evening. I am under no illusions that "it would be good to see me" as he has only phoned three times in that four weeks, although we have exchanged a few short emails about finances, and family information.

The main difference is that he wants to stay over, before when I mentioned he could stay over he said he wasnt ready to do that, and also he would stay at his aunts friday night and I would get an allocation of H between 10.30-3.30 and nothing more, he would have cut his nose off to spite his face literally!

I had thought of saying that I would be going out friday, although at this current time it would only be to meet a friend as I havent joined any activities as my main one is my horse and once back at work would need to ride her three evenings after work. Although I had been contemplating going to a Ceroc lesson this week. I know its ironic but I dont actually want to be stuck talking to him all evening and of course that would be a huge 180 as I have a real thing about being rude and if someone was coming it would be the last thing on my mind to go out!

Just twigged that monday is the 21st September we would have been together twenty nine years that day! Wonder if thats rattled him, I doubt it, it was usually me who remembered that anniversary.

Its all a bit higgley piggledy, this time ten days ago I would have cut off my right foot to see him and now I really could take it or leave it, or is that me just protecting myself from hearing news I dont want to hear!

Last edited by Lost Rabbit; 09/15/09 09:04 AM.
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W 47
H 47
M 24
T 30

Once lost but now found and happily married again!