Well, the love just isnt there he says. Damn. I dont know what I was expecting, maybe this a little, but still. I am so disappointed.

I didnt bring it up, I was going to let it go I suppose, but he wanted to talk. He misses me and our lives, hes miserable, he regrets what he did, but he doesnt want to try again. I asked him if he even tried, did any research or read any books, he said no, but he had looked up counselors but hadnt had a chance to make an appointment or see one. I told him this is important! This is our marriage! This is something that you make time for! I know that I shouldnt have said a few of the things that I did, but I tried to not make him feel guilty or blame him.

After how well things were going, I didnt expect this for an ending.

I dont know what else there is besides having your best friend, having someone you can laugh with and care for, someone that you can be physically intimate with... thats not love?

He didnt mention papers or anything, even though I told him that I needed to not be in this place anymore, I needed to start my life again but he didnt bring it up.

Blech. this sucks.

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...