I guess I am accommodating in some ways, but I have stopped going out of my way to accommodate a long time ago. I am mostly doing what I feel like doing without trying to accommodate anybody. What was it that specifically made you say that? Maybe I am more accommodating than I should be?
Also, what did you mean with "play off for W"? If you mean like putting on a show, act as if, that's not what I am doing. I do know who I am, and I like who I am, have liked who I am for at least 6 months. I feels like I am getting "settled" into my way of living now, by myself some of the time, by myself with the boys some of the time. At some point, I think it would be nice to have another adult to share my life with, but that will come when it will come. As has always been, my preference for that adult is still W, but if she can't see how good life would be with me, then so be it. Not my loss!
The last few weeks do feel like W might be noticing me slowly drifting off. She's making more effort to stay in touch. I make our interactions that she initiates (all of them lately) pleasant, just like I would with anyone else, but nothing beyond that.
Just wanted to make sure I understood your comments right. Thanks for coming by!
