I know that my life is rich and full - I have amazing friends that I didn't have before, my kids love me deeply and fully. We share time that I honestly had no way of even conceptualizing before. I have grown ever closer to my extended family, and God has blessed me financially. I have made real, personal changes - and my family and friends have noticed it, and pointed it out. But you can fool friends and family - what really matters is that my kids see and feel it. W talks very badly about me, and they just fall more in love with me!
I wallowed for awhile, but I choose to just embrace life. What I've realized is that by living in the past, and not cutting things loose, you submit yourself to another person's control.
If I'm going to be someone's spouse, I'm going to be their equal partner, not be dragged under their feet. As hard as I've worked in DBing, my W would have to undergo some serious counseling, and receive medication before I'd consider being with her again.
At this point, it's about doing the right thing, and having a clear conscience.
