I know the story of Hosea. It is infact one of my main inspirations. Like you, I was neither as close to God as I should have been either. But I am working on being as close to God as possible and letting him work things out. I am not interfering with my W and His plan. I am not taking it back. Just because I pray for her and us and I happen to notice things or she says things when we are together or I happen to think about her at times when we are not does not in any way at all mean that I am taking it back over.
I work on prayers that I can say at different times of the week. I pray daily and I stay out of it.
I pray that God brings her out of this and changes me and restores our M and family. I'm not giving up on her and our family. And I am doing what I need to be doing in the mean time.
I have an audio bible that I try to listen to at nights as well to get in his word as much as possible.
This morning was weird because I started to wake up thinking she was there like she always was and of course, she wasn't. But it was just strange as I was slowly coming awake. It almost felt like she was there beside me briefly while my eyes were closed. I had a dream last night that she told me she was not coming back. But I have also had 2 dreams where she told me we are back together. I am not sure what either mean if anything at all. This of course is over several months that these dreams occured.
The apartment was quiet this morning and felt empty as I got ready for work. I am always happy to get out of there when nobody is there.
I have D7 tonight which I am looking forward to again.
Lost41, I will jump over there shortly.
breakaway, I am not stalking her at all. Just because I think about her and our situation does not mean I am stalking her.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
