riding the big roller coaster...

[hopeinwaiting]

@Steady, thanks. I am working hard on the big ole stop sign in my head when these sorts of things pop up.

So H had the girls this weekend. I went shopping and then a happy hour and then out dancing with friends. Lots of fun, flirting and a good time to be had by all. Didn't get home until after 1:00 am.

Called H at 8:00 to say goodnight to the girls - He could hear that I was out. He was at a mutual friend's house (couples friends). The friend's wife and I had coffee on Sunday and she proceeded to tell me that H is still confused, doesn't know what he wants. H started to cry when he told them "I'm breaking up my family"...blah, blah, blah.

When H dropped off the girls, things were as usual. He did stick around for 20 minutes or so. Had a beer and chatted. Interesting, since I know yesterday was OW's birthday. But, alas... who cares.

So, today I went to my IC. He said something interesting that I need to think about. I need to try and make sure that our relationship throughout this separation not have the same dynamic that it did while we were M.

So, I was the caretaker, the one who "tried" for both of us. I need to stop that and that will take much more detaching.