INTERESTING!!!!

[Treese]

Hey YR.....
I've been away from the boards....trying to figure my life out I guess...

H is still pretty non-existant...with only having son 4 days the entire summer....I don't even ask him to help any longer...not worth the stress..

D17 asked last night if her dad would ever be in her life again...I did my best....told her it was really up to her whether she allows him to be...I cannot make that decision for her..she is angry that he doesnt even try to keep in contact with her...

I did bite the bullet and tell her that I truly believe that her dad thinks about her and loves her and cares for her..he just doesn't let it enter his mind because he would dwell on it and not be able to function in his everyday life..which is true.. I do know it hurts him not to have contact with the girls but look at what he's doing now...he doesnt even see his son now...you talk about withdrawn....he's so far gone it's scary...after I talked with her I cried myself to sleep....I have been doing very well, or so I thought, but knowing your kids hurt so bad, really takes it's toll on you...I can't fix this one...all I can do is pray, and that I did....

anyhow....my life continues...with no H...without his concern for anything that is happening in our lives...while he is swirling in the wind, with his soulmate, and real true love of his life...where the grass is greener...and someday...his world will come tumbling down...and we wont be around to catch him...

I'm moving on....I deserve to be happy...it's been 2 years...of no change....of waiting for things that will never happen...I hope someday someone will want to love me for me...to take care of me and my 3 beautiful children...I wish it would have all been different...but reality says its over..

I miss ya YR....& your advice....I know I've asked before but did your H just disappear during this whole mess....I guess my H is kind of following the MLC script.....we are definately in withdraw....aaauuggghhh....

Treese