Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Thanks GIMA.

I've been feeling pretty shut of lately. Since the night she packed her stuff and the following day when she took our S house shopping. (ugh!)

Since then, we have been a little closer believe it or not. She slept with me for two nights. Even after I saw she's still looking at houses she made a point to hug me and tell me that she really feels that it will be temporaty to give her the space she needs. She even told me that I have done more than she could have hoped for and she loves me.

I thought she was getting more comfortable with me. The out of the blue trip and crazy distance when she got back was just weird though. I was fine until she got home. Within a few hours she excluded me from dinner (made just enough for her and S7), told me she never comes in our room any more so she doesn't get my laundry (I am welcome to throw mine in with hers) and I just felt ignored or ostracized in my own house. Listening to the neighbor talk about my W smoking and getting drunk with her was a bit to process too. I just still can't see this as "her."

I'll have to think about something I can do for myself. I may sign up for a 5k run taking place next month.