Kevin...you have the mindset of a stalker. I don't mean you're dangerous, but your inability to let go of this person and stop concentrating on blaming her for not being in your life is how stalkers think. Doesn't matter if she was your wife.
She is a SEPARATE PERSON.
You say you've been to some AA meetings, have you done any reading or thinking of the 12 steps? Read them and substitute "your wife" for the word "alcohol."
