Just prior to round two beginning I had already started working on some personal things. I started walking and exercising again. A few years ago I was in amazing shape. I would like to get back there.
Not sure, today is the day to focus on feeling my body...That leads to an update from this weekend and a little journalling...
Went home after work Saturday to find out that wife is sick. Most likely a flu, but with her medical history, you never know. That made it tough to read her this weekend. She seemed very down, but was it due to feeling ill or is she feeling trapped?
Saturday night I managed to kink my neck/back while sleeping. That made Sunday a tough one for me. It still hurts this morning, but not quite as bad.
I mentioned that one of my goals is to have my wife touch me in passing. Saturday night she touched my hand when asking if I wanted a cup of tea. It was nice, but not "the touch" I am meant. It feels different.
I also said I want to be invited to sleep in my own bed. Yesterday, my wife said "maybe you should sleep in bed tonight" - but that was only due to the fact that by back was a mess. I declined the invitation, but in the middle of the night had to sleep in a real bed in order to get any sleep. I hope that was not a mistake. Tonight, hopefully I will be able to sleep on the futon in rec room as I have been doing.
Should note: wife and I did have a hot tub together. She started the tub, but knew I was going to have one to help my back problem. She helped me stretch out the muscles, but it was very clinical.
I tried to give her space all weekend so she can ease into being back in our home. Unless things change again, I believe she plans on "living together" at least until the end of the year. That gives me some time to apply my dbing knowledge.
There has been no r talk at all since she came home. I know it's best if there isn't, but I am concerned that she will think I believe everything is fine and that will make her angry.
Question - Without actually brining up the r, how do I let her know what I am aware that things are not ok? With my wife, having her think that I think all is ok, will create resentment. I hope that makes sense. Your comments appreciated.
