You 've been having one of the smoothest reconciliations on these boards and still, you tell us something is OFF. I wonder if anyone, anyone can make it if you two feel weird. Your BF sounds like he is on his knees constantly, remorsefull and tender and loving. Maybe you too need to deal with some of your issues as well. There is not much else he can do, you know?
So, are you still coming? Maybe we can go skiing together, LOL!!! K