Moving on with my life!

[Startingover2]

Very disappointed in myself. I let him badger me down.

He was going on and on about how I should want baby to be with her father, blah blah blah...but I don't etc. I was telling him I do, but on the off days I make plans. He seems to think I should change them for him.

So I ended up inviting him to go to icecream with us last night. It was fun and we joked around. He made comments about my 'boyfriends' and I joked about his. He said she is almost gone, and I jokingly asked who the next victim was. He said with a smile that he didn't know. I said why don't you be a father rather than the Town Slut? He didn't like tha very much. Oh well..I pointed out that everyone around him is now married and he is acting like a spoiled frat boy and does that give him a clue. He said I always think I am perfect and that ruined our M.

So later I stupidly sent a text saying I wasn't perfect and I thought that baby, other kids and he were worth fighting for...His reply:

You shouldn't have to fight to keep a M together. It should be natural. You thinking you are perfect and pointing our my faults was on my nerves.

On what planet does he think there won't be problems? I was doing all the fighting against all of his crap. He made me feel like I was the cause of his misery. Who isn't going to point out drinking and cheating?

I just told him to tell that to our daughter why we couldn't fight for her to have a stable life.

He came back with his usual "I love my daughter". I really hate when he says that. Its like he has to convince me of it. You do? Really? How? Up to this point you have been a selfish jerk.