aww, thanks Lola. It is a roller coaster after all, isn't it. up and down. Even though it was a rough wknd, it caused me to identify the hardest part of this for me is the lack of control. Having absolutely no control over another person and having to live with the decision that they make is a bitter pill to swallow. When I have control over so much else in my life, it's hard to accept that this is something I must surrender to. I can't just have it because I want it. I appreciate your encouragement. I hadn't thought about the fact that I did do ok in the face of that. I could have called him and exposed myself and ruined any progress I may have made in the past wks. sigh. so tiny
