Someone please pull me out of this slime pit known as my life!

Just when I thought she couldn't go any lower or bring me down, I think I'm the worst I 've ever been.

My kids HATE it there, I spent an hour and twnty minutes with S12 balling his head off bexause XW makes it clearer than ever he's adopted, how f'n low is that?!? I love that kid sooo much, it's not even fair to my own flesh and blood how much I put him first.

I can't believe I let her beat me again.

Please, I need encouragement here.

Me 35/XW 33
S13 & S12
M: 10/17/98
OM & S: 07/08
D final 06/09/09
12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing"
06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10
06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11