Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Tough night and I don't know why. Went to WAW's house to talk about kid scheduling. She had this look like "he's here again."

Went through all the stuff. This is my weekend but I can work at a football game Friday so instead of keeping them, she's taking them up to her mom's house so she can go see a friend's husband's band play at a bar that night.

She definitely is way ahead of me on GALing.

I don't think I showed any other weakness and I didn't act down or depressed.

When I left though I was just emotionally spent. Trying to turn off the feelings is just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hard.

I called a person at church who is leading my marriage rebuilders group and we talked for an hour.

I have to try to have as little contact with WAW this week as possible. I must try to put her out of my mind. The person from church said it took him three years to have no feelings for his ex-wife.

Wow. I'm just in the fifth month.