Baby steps are good Hope! I expect my H is wondering if my changes are either "good changes" or "revenge" at the moment, I have spent twenty eight years telling him "I wont accept used goods back" and "I'd take him to the cleaners" only in jest mind you, but with serious under tones, and now hes left Im not doing it, although I always believed I would if that makes sense. Im doing NC at the moment, he phones about once a week, gets minimal info outta me and I dont want to know anything about him (my biggest 180). But bearing in mind he (and your H) has changed completely they cant say we cant/wont after all these years.. The good thing about a bomb is that it destroys every thing so its an opportune time to rebuild from scratch and of course CHANGE!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!