Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Hey girls! Thanks Kat.. I guess you mean that there was this real love between us and it was so hard to be apart? Wow, its still feels surreal being with him. We just spent 3 days straight alone together, both off work ill Fri and then a sunny weekend at the beach. Thats enough for me, for now, but he wonders why noone calls (everyone is still staying away, letting us rebuild, but its been 4 months nearly!!).

K - No NO NO NO NO!! We would never do that in your house, that would be like doing it in his Mums, or my Mums, ewww, no way!! Haha. And anyway, we are not having sex in our own house, neverlone anyone elses! Apart from once or twice.. he is still feeling 'not sexy' and now feels 'flat' - but then he told me he lost his pills last weekend and so hasnt had one since then. So, he starts to get quiet and less fun... He is going to ring round his friends today to see if he can find them.

The no ML is getting to me. I feel like I need more reassurance than this (although he gives it to me all day long really, hugs, kisses etc). We had a little chat about how he feels, he said he reacts badly when we talk because it makes him realise how much he upset me and hurt me and he cant bare how that makes him feel. He said he knows what he wants now and was 'crazy' before and is largely nowhere near that anymore, but not 100% ok yet. Meanwhile, the closer we get and the further the bomb is, the more resentments rise.. its like.. how could you do that to me !?? But I dont tell him. Its not the fact he left me, its the way he left, so brutally...