A Little Epiphany - (and a newbie delurking)

[Dia]

I'm back on the couch. Sigh.

It's not a pullback so much as it is an abundance of caution on his part. He was on his computer and I wanted to go to bed. I'm sick and I'm tired from a grueling weekend. So I asked him casually and politely if he wanted me back on the couch. He said yes, that would be best for him.

And yes, I did have a few minutes of dumbfounded panic. But after those minutes, I was ok. I mentally reset all of my expectation meters back to ZERO. It helped that we met in the hall while I was getting my blankets and he strongly implied that it was temporary.

H: I'm sorry about the couch. I just don't want my body making decisions for me until we've had a chance to talk some things out.

Dia <reassuringly>: It's ok. It's absolutely ok. I understand, and I'm not upset.

H <relieved>: Good. I was afraid you'd be hurt.

Dia: Nope. Slow is good. Slow is smart.

H: <initiates really nice hug complete with stroking my hair and the fingers trailing, hand holding thing>

All in all, it's probably for the best. If he doesn't already have this cold, maybe he won't get it.