WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

The B'Day party with the boys was a blast. I felt a little "odd" as I was the only dad there - all the others were moms. My buddy, whose son's B'day it was, was there though.

She showed up a few minutes late. Part of me almost hoped that she wouldn't be there, but she called asking for help to find the place.

Anyway, when she got there, we didn't say anything to each other. The odd part of it was my boys pretty much ignored her as well. They said hi but when my 3 year old got bumped, he came running to me - right past her, even though she tried to pick him up. Even my 7 year old, who is a mama's boy, didn't pay her much attention till later.

Both my boys were playing and I saw her standing by herself watching them. I moved closer to her (I had been talking to my buddy up till that point). I was about 3 feet behind her and 10 feet to her left. The boys did some funny stuff having fun with their friends. I laughed and she turned and just smiled at me. I joined the kids in the fun and she just continued to watch and laugh. She said a few things making note of how much fun we were having.

We we sat down for the cake, I sat with the boys and other kids, she sat with the adults (the moms). I saw her looking at me and she smiled. I smiled back at her. When I got my cake, it was an end piece. In the past, I was never much of a fan of frosting, so when I got the end piece, I would cut off the frosting and give it to her. I walked up to her and cut off the frosting and pointed at it. She smiled and I gave it to her.

Towards the end of the party, she came over and sat with the boys and I. We talked very lightly (just about the party and the going on).

After the party was over, I walked the boys to my truck, she came over and I asked if she had plans for tonite. She said she didn't. I asked if she wanted to have dinner. She said she didn't have any money to pay to go out. I told her that I was aking her to go. She said that she was planning on running to a store to pick my 7 year old up a sweat shirt but that was about it for her plans tonite. I said we could go together before dinner since it was a little early.

She did a lot of talking about various stuff (typical stuff that we had talked about). I listened and tried to show her I was paying attention. When we were at the store, she made a comment about how she thought our talk on Fri was productive. I said I thought so too although I was still processing everything to figure out what I wanted to do.

We had a good dinner. We laughed and talked. The kids do a good job as well.

When we got home, I put the kids in her car and gave them hugs and kisses. She was sitting in her car by the time I was done with the boys. As she backed out of the driveway, I just waved and said goodbye boys, I love you.

So, I showed her the door is not locked, but I think I've done above and beyond what I should have done. It's up to her to walk through the door now.....