K4D Rising #4

[25yearsmlc]

I think she was asking in what ways are you getting help. Not generic focuses. Those didn't seem to help you much.

exactly. As in, professional help. K4, there's no shame in needing professional help. We are not all equipped for all things, and sometimes life throws us a curve ball we don't have the tools for, OR throws us more than one at a time.[i] I am one of those people who got professional help, so I know how important it is for you to stop being this miserable and lonely for this long. [/i] You have had longstanding problems with depression before all this happened, which may have lead to your drinking, and you still avoid making hard choices, and you still want others to make them for you. This is not helping you at all.
There are a hundred examples on this thread, of a fundamental inability of yours, to move forward or to truly change, from within. Bandaid approaches are just that, bandaids for a sucking chest wound that needs much more treatment. No one seems to be able to reach you or if we do, we don't for very long. I don't think it's willful on your part. But that feeling you have of being "overwhelmed by normal events" is by definition, not normal.

So yeah, when I say "work on you," I mean for you to get some serious analysis or therapy or counselling --or better yet a full work up, to rule out physiological problems along with behavioral, and start getting better.

That's what I mean. I think you have emotional problems that are not getting better and as bad as we ALL have felt at times here, you have been stuck in the same pattern for too long and it's hurting your "cause" and it's probably not too great for your kids to watch.

Plus, don't you want more from life? If I felt as lonely and sad and bored as you sound on your posts, I would do just about any damn thing I could, to stop feeling that bad and start healing.
I am sure of this.

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