Kevin, I don't think I've posted on you thread before but I've read most of it. You have many people who are interested in seeing you through your issues. However, they can only go so far. You need to see someone in the real world. What you may find is that you are completely normal. Even if that is the case there are still things an IC can help you work through. Don't mess around with this. When your cars not working correctly you take it to the mechanic. Not saying your broken but you need an expert to help you on your journey.
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