Isn't it weird how they have a cave. Here it is the Den just off the livingroom. There is no door, just a big arch opening. He sits there in front of his computer or watches the TV that's in there. Then all of a sudden, he's up, gets cleaned up, and out the door. Must be when skank texts him. "Come on over lover boy, where I can take care of you and get you away from that mean wife of yours!" I am getting so tired of this. Sometimes I feel like whatever, go be with the skank you poor pitiful person. Then you can be pitiful together.
Today I can hear him in the Den shuffling papers around. I was wondering if he may be getting his financial statements together. But then why wouldn't he have done that yesterday when I was gone all day. I wonder if she is pressuring him again. He hates to be pressured by anyone though. So I will sit quietly and let her do herself in. The nicer I treat him, the more he wants to get away. Must be what they mean by killing them with kindness. But what about you attract more Bee's with honey than you do vinegar?
I am having this overwhelming desire today to reply to that stupid projection letter of his. I would like to say... " I feel bad for you that you feel that way, and my heart goes out to you." And for the part when he says " I know you want to put all this behind us, and pretend it never happened, but it will never be with me." I want to say. " Your right, it will never be with you. Don't you think I have more respect for myself than to be with you after you've been with a skank!" If only I could get my heart and head in agreement. I can't believe how into himself he is! Everybody wants him!! Ya ya!
