H and I haven't really discussed the MC session yet- we're supposed to come up with some goals for our marriage for the next session (that's a week from Tues.)
One thing did come out yesterday- H and I were discussing an issue regarding S18 and how to best handle it. We have had issues with him off and on during his senior year in HS, but H is the one that S18 can't and doesn't want to talk to. (He has the same difficulties in talking to H that I do.) At the MC, I mentioned "his" issue with S18, meaning communication (this was while we were talking about H being angry and hard to talk to), and H jumped my sh*t yesterday about it- "We BOTH have an issue with S18. The way you said it makes me sound like I'm a major @sshole!" Sound familiar, Carlos? You were right. So it looks like we have our assigned roles- he's the @sshole, and I'm the nutcase. I can only wonder what else he's seething about from the MC. I'm sure I'll find out soon enough.
The talk yesterday did fall into the same patterns- H lecturing me on how I don't handle S18 and other things right, I HATE when he lectures me. I speak up, and it's shot down. I can't talk without feeling stupid. At one point, H said "Do you REALLY think that? Because everybody else in the world..." Does he listen to himself while he talks?
In the meanwhile, I am considering the apartment again. My best friend also thinks it may be a good idea. I'm not calling the bldg manager until after the next MC session, but I'm getting stuff ready and organized in the meantime. It's about time for fall cleaning anyways, so it won't look out of the ordinary and it's stuff I've been meaning to do. You know, old pics of the kids and needlework projects should be organized, the closet gone through, paperwork taken care of, that kind of stuff, so that when I'm ready to leave, I can just grab and go quick.
