Had a lovely evening last night, drank far too much but best mate C was on duty to make sure I didnt get silly, and didnt txt H.. It was mostly horsey mates and a few OH's and we played silly party games, laughed ourselves silly, I did get some male attention (yard owners dad) albeit it about twenty years too old for me, but bless his heart he made me feel womanly again and I had a little dance with him, which was so nice to be touched and held.
C made sure I was in and cat was tucked up too, but I got in a tizz about finding my phone after she had gone and finally that led to angry tears, probably the first real tears I have let go since this all happened. Anyway head is fine nothing that a couple of paracetamol and cup of coffee isnt fixing although I have got an upset stomach, hope that settles down soon!
Was woken at nine thirty by mother who had rang to say that dear friend had gone to be with her beloved husband at four oclock this morning, she asked why I sounded not with it and was told I hadnt rolled in till three oclock this morning as I had been out partying. Considering it only took her a day to relay miss information to my sister which then got back to H I wondered what H will find out I have been doing this time lol ..
Now my dilemma, Obviously dear friend has passed away, now do I let H know, or do I assume the grapevine will tell him anyway, H said he would phone in a few days, which really should be today at the latest as he phoned last wednesday. Bearing in mind he has advanced from phoning from every seven days to six Im not holding my breathe, but I really dont want to ring him before his time is up, if that makes sense. Or should I just email him the information, as there are no funeral arrangements and tbh I dont want to go if he is going to be there telling everyone he has left me. Advice on this one folks is needed.
Anyway off to rehydrate myself and have an easy restful day me thinks!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
