UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Thanks Cas - and for being so supportive on my Personal (not Peronal) Positives!!

I never know how to get Gucci - he just appears!!

I do think that you are right - I would hold hopes for more conversation than just the financial meeting so perhaps I should hold tight. It may be that H wants now to see me but just won't give in to saying so and is looking for an excuse! Who knows - afterall, he has said that he misses me at times?

I would say that yes, I do have to tell him about my job. I am frightened that he is going to find out and I have been there already, when I did the five weeks locum, recently. He went ape. He thought that I was trying to withold my financial responsiblity by not telling him. Thing is, I have a month to go before I shall get paid and if someone tells him in the meanwhile, I'm toast. It may also be seen as a 180 in that I have found a job and it will take some pressure off him - which should, in turn, take his pressure off me.

I think that what I might do is give him the choice. I will say that we can have our discussion by phone or we can meet - and leave him to decide - whether he wants to come down or for me to go to him, which has not been an option previously. That feels better ... what do you think??