Again, you are human. There are going to be triggers. Allow yourself to feel. Not dealing with your emotions now will only back up on you at some later date. Might as well just meet them head on. Don't wallow for long. If you have to, set a time limit and when your time is up, pick yourself up, dust off and refocus.
There are a handful of us here on the board from way back in the day. The original board began sometime in 1999 I believe.
San D is one of my very favorite places to go. I live about two hours away towards the desert. My fiance will be in San D next week for a class and I will be heading that way for a bit of R&R when class is over. Chillin at SeaPort Village is high on my list.
You may never get the answers to your questions. That doesn't make them any less important. At some point you will just have to find acceptance. The memories will remain, perhaps a bit bittersweet, but they are your history nonetheless.
*hugs* ~ swl
Look not mournfully into the past. It comes not back again. Wisely improve the present. It is thine. Go forth to meet the shadowy future, without fear. {Henry Wadsworth Longfellow}
