WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

I will not defend this woman, as I would like to beat her up for you. But.....

Now that could be a heck of a pay-per-view cable draw!

You are so mad at her, I think it's clouding your vision.

I don't know if I'm mad/angry or still just hurt and disgusted. Either way, I do see your point. It also remind me of something you had shared with me many post/text/emails/calls ago - if I new she was coming home, how would I be behaving. Would I have questioned her or would I have just said "That sounds like a great idea - what time did you want to go?"....

She called to tell you about a family oriented event. You asked her the worst possible question IF you were interested in doing something with her to see the interaction, her demeanor as this would be the first time you would have done anything with her since finding out about the cheating....but IF you wanted to put her on the spot and make her feel stupid for telling you about the event, your question was right on.

What was your intention?

Frankly, I didn't want to see her today as I was still dealing with all the stuff from last nite's call. It didn't end till 2AM and I was up for almost another hour before I fell asleep. Of course my two WONDERFUL boys woke up at 6:30 AM as usual. So I was tired today and really was just looking to spend a relaxing, fun filled day with my boys

I also believe that there is an extremely high probability that she will be at the B'day party tomorrow. So I knew I would have to see her there. I know I can limit how much interaction I have with her, but will see how I feel when I see her. If it goes ok, I was thinking about asking her to join us for dinner, like she had before her cheating came to light.

One thing that has been bugging me from last nite's call was that during the first 1.5 hours where it was going badly, she had said that she has been dating but hasn't met anyone that she would consider long term relationship material. I know I told her that I won't work on any relationship with her while there are other parties involved while we are still married. I don't know what she is going to do. If she continues to date, I'm really not looking to rebuild any trust/relationship with her. I'm pretty sure I made myself clear, but with her twisted head, you can never tell

She did call to talk to say goodnite to my boys. My 3 year old didn't want to talk to her again. I just let my 7 year old answer. He chatted just for a few minutes and then hung up.

I did wind up texting her about an hour or so later - Have a good nite sleep. She never replied, not sure if she's out on a date or had gone to sleep or what. Either way, I'm sure I'll get some 2x4's from that one....