How do you wait this out?

[Golfgirl1]

I just got back from a wedding party for one of my former students. They were playing their wedding video in their amazing basement. In fact, their entire home was amazing...that's what h and I were starting to do before all this, looking at new homes with the hi tech bells and whistles. I really want a new flat screen television and just some things that scream, ME, but all in good time. NO need to rush things right now I guess. I just HATE living here!!!!! I stayed only long enough to drop off a card and I cried all the way home for the loss of my m, the future dreams, etc. I'm sure it will get better, but things like that just really suck and I really, really want OUT of this house!!!!

BND..I'm doing my best to make my life go on, but setbacks are setbacks and this was a bad one.