Okay, I am just spinning right now and very upset.
My H was home all day and cleaning up his office space which he has not used for months and months really (hasn't been home long enough to use it). I really don't know what motivated him. Anyway, he has had this picture of me from our wedding up for as long as I can remember. When I saw what he was doing I was so afraid that he would take it down and was praying and praying that he wouldn't. And he did. Can't stop crying.
Why is this upsetting me so much? It is such a stupid little thing in the whole scheme of things. I know we are told to not believe 100% of what they say and 50% of what they do but what if this is the 50% of what I SHOULD believe??!
Ironically, he could tell something was wrong and wants to know what is wrong. I asked why he wanted to know and he said so he could help. Hmmm... What am I supposed to say to that? I told him I didn't want to talk about it right now and he left upset I won't tell him. And NO I won't tell him what is bothering me now. Ever.
I'm sure I will be fine and it will pass but this is so, so hard. How do you people who have been doing this for so long manage to keep from getting bitter and being able to feel any kind of love for your H/W at all? What I am feeling right now is definitely not love.
