My buddy and his wife needed to go to a memorial for his friend’s grandmother. Its 91 degrees here in Washington...must have brought the Calif. weather with me. (Looked back at my home town and it's only 67) Did a little too much drinking last night. My buddy invited a bunch of his friends over to meet Me. (No women)...I told him a little about what is going on and he does not understand how I can live like that.I Did not tell him about the affair BUT... he did ask if she was cheating on me...I did n ot anser the questions and just said some things happened and I really don't want to talk about it. He wanted me to stay at his place this week but I told him I needed some alone time. He has a cement pouring business and work is a little slow now and he told me if I wanted to move up here I would have a job when he could give me work. I told him thanks but I am trying to work things out. He then told me he was not going to let me leave without taking some money. I told him I am doing ok money wise right now I got a good package from work. We talked about the possibility of me losing my house and stuff. It felt good talking to someone but I was still holding stuff back. I know you all lived though this stuff but I know if I told him about the affair he would say dump her and get out. I did e-mail wife and let her know I was here and having a good time but she did not reply. I am holding back calling. Would like to call my son but I know if I did and not call her it would send the wrong message. Now that I am here the urge to contact the OM has faded. Call me strange but I like having the knowledge and power to do something sometimes and not use it but know I could if I wanted too. Well staying here one more night and will probably be drinking AGIAN... that is what my buddy does work and drink beer...
My H.S for today....
Someone doesn't necessarily like what you're doing, but you aren't clear about the source of the problem. The more you dig, the more complicated and convoluted the whole situation becomes. You are ready to throw your hands up in the air in frustration and let the winds of change carry you where they will. And that's what you would do if you didn't have any obligations. Other people are depending on you so you cannot run out and leave them in a lurch
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
