So I can continue to walk towards the end. I have to do a much better job at detaching, because the BS is going to kill me. Actually I am starting to despise my wife quite a bit and really getting sick of it all. One of the things I have a problem with are the social online networks. I am friends with my wife on two of them. The problem I have is reading her post about how horrible things are for her! I try to mentally block them out, but seeing it 3-4 times a day....just bothers me. I know I should just block her or delete her from my pages, but some of me doesn't want to! It is like I will lose that little window into her life....I have to do better detaching.
On the wife front (pre-note-All people know she is married)-Guy friend is either very depressed or feeling guilty. Either way he has started to push her away and she hasn't been happy about that. Co-worker guy is texting her all the time now....She appears annoyed by it, but he may end up being a guy she uses for beer and motorcycle rides...who knows? A female friend of another co-worker (50 year old single woman living and partying with a group of 22 year olds) hit on my wife this week telling her she was pretty and taking her cell phone number (to send her interesting messages...ahh). Then there is the kicker of it all. She found an old HS friend on the computer and they have been chatting for a year or so. This guy is a 40 year old permanent MLC type guy. To be honest, I am jealous. Never married, no kids, plenty or money, and travels all over all the time. So his latest GF (He has tons of hot GF's) broke up with him this week. So wife wants to go down and see him all of a sudden....Hmmmmm....I need to detach. She says nothing is going to happen....heard that one before.
On me: I may have to put the dream of my business on hold. Right now I just can't find work and when I do...I either get underbid or the people can't afford to have the work done. Been trying to find a job, but it seems like there are only $8.00 an hour jobs available...and that doesn't cover the bills. I sent out some more applications and inquiries, but no luck so far. The real burner about it all is....until I can start making more cash, we need her cash to pay the bills. So that delays her moving out!
And then there is the loneliness thing. It seems like there are women everywhere doing the eye and body language flirt thing. It seems like if I am at the park running, grocery shopping, or even at the park with the kids there is some woman checking me out. It is getting really hard not to walk up to one of these women and say "Hi"....really hard.
