We all screw up sometimes. I just think you have to think of them as learning experiences. You said you felt pathetic and like an addict when you did the pursuing. I've seen your posts when you were really strong in DBing and you sound happy, strong, confident. So just learn from these experiences and do what will increase your PMA, not decrease it. If you feel like you're going to call or text him, maybe call or text a friend, anyone other than him? Post here. Get out and do some exercise. Go get a cappucino (my favorite), but whatever will distract you.
