Hey K.. one of those weekends its hard for me to post, but wanted to quick drop in and check on you and tell you I am thinking of you. I am glad you 'ambushed' H, as you put it.. you need to talk to him hey. But not that damn coffee shop again.. still, at least this time there was some conversation this time?
Originally Posted By: Kalni
He said he feels guilty, that I made him feel guilty with my emails and that he cant look at me in the eyes. That he is very sad this is happening...
He couldnt talk. It felt like something was holding him back. I cant really decsribe it... He also said the kids are not meeting any woman. Although he wasnt so determined about Christine being "nothing" as he used to say. So I guess he is seeing her again.
I wish he could for once, just once, open up and talk to me. Tell me he loves her and that he regrets what happened or apologise or say something coming from the heart. I must have really thought he was alot more than he really is.
You know, he is only to me what you describe here... but I dont reckon he is in love with her, or loves her. I think he loves you, sadly, even if you do both have to walk away. For him, I think SHE was the addiction, thats how it works hey. I also think you will get tht apology one day, even if you have to wait years to hear it. I got one from the Piscean 15 years later and one from my last ex, 9 years later. And didnt you and your exH (Rob?) have some healing convos many years later?
Hugs to you!..hope you are having a good evening, painting maybe?? Al xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
