But can you believe how pathetic I was. Then get this, I texted just him just wanted to know when I kicked you out. And then I called from a different #. He answered. I said so it's my # you'r not answering. And to show you how tacky my H is, he said what man's # are you calling me from. I said don't worry about it. He said that I kicked him out and he got kicked out again and I said to him to GET OUT. I was like OMG, that is such a lie. Which it is. He got into his attitude the night and started to curse and carry on,, and I said, ok, H have a good night. I started to tell him my recollection of what happen, he said he's going to get some food will call me back, and here I am the next day and still no call back.
Anyway, I am totally disappointed in myself. This was some crazy stalker crap. I am so appalled with myself. But what's done is done. I feel like I don't remember any of Michelle's teachings. What pursuit mode.
So I decided to give myself this good 2x4 and to come here to seek encouragement to stop this crazy lady behavior. My desire is to not call H anymore. Put a stop to the pursuit. He is not interested in talking to me so I need to leave it alone. Please help. I can't keep doing this. This is so like an addiction where you know it's bad but you can't stop. I need AAA for relationships. Heeeellllllpppppppp.....
