Ok, gotta give myself a 2x4, yesterday, I was on a pursuing roll- one of those where you just can't stop yourself. After saying to myself I won't talk to H until he calls me, I called him. Yes, I did and kept calling too. It was ridiculous. I called at first and told him that how he spoke to me was unacceptable and I will not tolerate it. And that I need to be financially supported and that I did not work with him all these years to not be taken care of. He said that I kicked him out. Then we hanged up. Then I called back, which just put the ball in his court b/c he didn't answer the phone. Then I called back an hour later, then I text him even better just change your number (Gosh, I really which he would change his #, I promised myself I won't memorize it and would just erase it from all caller ID just so that I have no means of following up on these temptations.) Any then I got this crazy notion to text him change your # so that he would get annoyed and do just that. I texted about 11 times. Then I actually called again.
