My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

Thanks, NNP. It really isn't a matter of making a difference in a relationship with xH--because I'm not interested in continuing to bash my head against that wall. It's more a matter of understanding my own patterns, how I end up in similar situations, how to not end up there again should I ever find a romantic relationship again.

I am actually a rather friendly person--I chat with folks wherever I am, I have many positive relationships at work. It is simply a lonely period of my life, the degree of catastrophe in my life is simply off-putting to old friends (been in this spot before, after losting my second son--no matter how engaging one tries to be, it's just too much for friends to be comfortable around). It's a matter of baby steps, of continuing to get through one day at a time.