HUgs. Im sorry you're here. I cant really offer any advice, but wanted to let you know you arent alone. I will say that bringing up the past the way your H is doing is abusive. Esp after so much time. GALing is the most important thing you can be doing right now. We all have bad days, Im having one today. But make yourself get out and do something. Go for a walk or bake if thats your thing. Clean out a closet and organize it. All these things help take your mind off your situation, even if for a little bit. Journaling here helps as well.
