Having a rough morning. A friend of ours has been talking to my husband and when I logged into my profile and saw her it showed him back on it. No word from him of course. I know she isnt choosing sides, but it kinda hurt for some reason. I was VERY tempted to say something but I didnt. He HAS been talking about me, but I dont know if she brought me up or he did. I dont know if thats a good sign or a bad sign. Im just hurting from it this morning. He never did contact me like he said he would. Yet another lie? Yea I cried about it. Nothing I can do. Sometimes I feel i wont ever hear from him again. Sometimes I dont care. Is this rollercoaster ever going to stop? I would be happy if it slowed down a little more. And he stopped checking my profile , i guess around the time he re-added our friend onto his profile. Guess that could mean a couple of things, but I tend to think he really is done and Im not sure what direction I should take. Do I stay dark? For how long? Forever? There doesnt seem to be any "set' time for this, and I hate not talking to him. Most days anyway. He put new pics of him and his gf on his profile. I didnt see them, I cant look, but another friend of ours mentioned them. I just wanted to break something. He is so happy with her apparently and doesnt want anyone getting between them. He could let someone come between us tho? Im not so sure. I think he pursued her not the other way around. Which makes it even worse. I would love to blame her, but, I cant, esp if she didnt know. Doesnt mean I want to be friends with her. I want to rip her apart and tell her to get away from my husband.
I have a bbq this afternoon with some friends of mine. Im looking forward to that. Im making potato salad right now and brownies. Cant show up empty handed!
UPside is divorce hasnt been mentioned yet. I was wondering if he could divorce me over there? I know you can get married out of the country can you divorce too? What do I do if he can? I cant go there and fight it!
