Hi hm. I was reading everything I could get my hands on about WHY I may be the way I am and how/why things could not work with my h. It is good to understand, but at some point I just realized that no amount of reading and understanding was ging to make a difference.
One thing I have done (and you may already do this sort of thing, but I did not) was smile at strangers and strike up little convos whenever there was a chance. In line at the grocery store, or at the bank or where ever the opportunity presented itself.
I was pleasantly surprised to find that people actually smiled back at me... and in most cases talked to me when I made the effort.
Those small steps did wonders for my being able to feel connected.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011