Yes it is the same. My H is still a bit unsure of me now. He will go through the same thing next week as I will be going out a couple of times next week, so I will be prepared for the same reaction.
Had a very busy busy day, very sore now though. Planted several pots. One with a tomato plant and lettuce. Another one with basil, oregano and baby capsicum. Another two pots with decorative plants in them.
By the time I planted them downstairs and then carried them upstairs I had done a weight lifting session to rival the gym. Swept and cleaned up my front entrance and planted some pretty flowers in the garden bed. Feeling much better now that the house is looking more like I would like.
Cooked a lovely dinner for D and I, now about to have a long hot bath then some TV. Was going out but just too tired now, feeling very happy and content within myself.
H rang. I didn't check the number as I wasn't thinking so answered, damn must remember to always check the number first. He sounded a bit down and asked what I was doing tonight (at that point I was still going to go out), as I was rushing to do dinner, I sounded very rushed
Oz: I am quickly doing dinner for D and then had to get ready to go I am running late.
H:" Oh
Oz: I really have to go
H: Where are you going
Oz: dinner, movies or maybe a club not sure yet, I am in the mood for some music
H: Oh
Oz: Really have to go
H: We are going to dinner now.
Oz: That's good, enjoy that
H: I'll be home around lunchtime tomorrow
Oz: Okay, I may be out, have some things to do tomorrow, really have to go, see you.
H: Okay then, see you tommorow
Oz: Yep, bye
He kept trying to keep me on the phone, I kept trying to get off the phone, he sounded very much like he wished he was here going and doing whatever I was doing.
I won't be here when he gets home tomorrow, I am have a mani and a pedi and doing some retail therapy with D. Lookin forward to that.
Feeling good, in control and not particularly fussed about what H does haven't given him a thought today, I guess when you really lose yourself in your GAL activities and detach that's how it feels. I think.
I actually felt very much in control on the phone, wasn't nervous or anything and didn't falter in what I was saying. That was the first time he has tried to keep me on the phone.
Had a lovely relaxing long bath, did all the girly stuff and now just enjoying some time with D and the furry ones.
Well let's see what today holds. If I can get D up, she likes a bit of a sleep in, then we can start getting ready to go on a retail therapy trip.
Expecting a call from H to tell me he is on his way home, won't be answering.
Then there will be the call, "where are you"
He will be expecting me to be home, waiting, so he can now out of a whole weekend, give me 5 minutes of his time at the end of the weekend. I am more important than a squeeze her in at the end of it routine. I need to be important enough to be thought of at the start of the weekend.
Have a great day/evening everyone. Will check in a bit later.
Gotta say, I love your attitude Oz. You sound strong and in control. I love the fact that you recognise just how important you are; just too important for the crumbs from H. More power to you!!
