W can't break EA - not sure how to handle it

[Serenity13]

Thank you for your kind words...I search for peace every day and I am ok with where I am at this stage, some days are better then others...

Lamictal - Wasn't a fan...

Never had Celexa and I have taken Abilify as well...

Right now I take Geodon (antipsychotic used for bipolar as well as schizophrenia), Buspar for depression and Niravam (Xanax) for panic attacks...

Yes the meds help however it is in combination with sleep/therapy/stress relief etc...

Selfish thinking - Not a symptom of it however it goes along with it...

If it isn't under control and stable/then you are thinking all about you and how this is affecting you and how you feel...

If it isn't treated/it can consume you...

Your thoughts/actions/emotions get the better of you, that is when paranoia sets in and you begin to think everyone/everything is out to get you including your own mind and that will then possibly lead to suicidal thoughts...

I have tried for over 20 years to control it however each time it ends up controlling me...

Until I accepted the fact that I would be this way for life, that I would be medicated for life, I let it consume me...

Now I don't...I take my meds...Make sure I get enough sleep...I don't drink or use drugs and I see a psych Dr. every 6 weeks...My faith has been what has sustained me throughout this...Without that, there isn't enough medication in the world to get me through this...

There is no "magic pill" she can take, get all better, then go back to the person she used to be and come home...

I don't want to be a downer however the choices ultimately are hers with or without the bipolar, she is still choosing her course of actions...

Her emotions being amplified aren't helping matters but in the end don't let her use that to justify her actions because no matter how it is spun, there is no justification for her behavior (I don't mean to be so blunt)...

This I learned the hard way...

Ok back to reading