just wondering if anybody else is thinking about this today. . . a lot of us have been with our partners more than eight years, so i figure we have stories about how we got through that time together. can't help thinking more than usual about my wife today. . .
we were married nine days earlier, a beautiful full moon in a meadow in the woods, tiki torches, potluck, jugs of wine. four mixtapes of "our songs" that we made together playing on a boombox, six hours of music.
we were staying with friends in philadelphia, looking for an apartment. . . our family and friends live in and around new york, and we didn't lose anybody but we knew some people who made it out of the building. all the cell phones were out, and my wife couldn't get in touch with her mother til the next day.
we ended up moving to a small town in new england (long story). my wife and i are pacifists, and really feared for our country and were shocked to witness a war (and all the political changes) unfolding around us. . .
all this as we were adjusting to being "husband" and "wife," and searching for jobs in a small, conservative town where we felt out of place. (we weren't able to afford a place in the liberal college towns on the other side of the mountains).
(i'm not trying to start a political conversation here. . . that time was tough on everybody, no matter their beliefs, but very difficult for those of us on the left.)
we got through that time together, and our marriage was defined by it. our 8th anniversary was last week, and now is the 8th anniversary of 9/11. . . it'll make me think of her as long as i live.
the world was falling apart and we held on to each other so tightly. . .
sorry if this depresses anyone, or brings up difficult memories. i just needed to share somewhere instead of contacting her. . . i feel overwhelmed with memories, i don't know how to think of my life without thinking of her. i don't know who i am. . . we became who we are together, through so many difficult times for us and the world, i always thought our love would see us through anything. tonight she's off partying, i know, it's her roommate's birthday. she left me for FUN?
that's what it seems like.
Last edited by ryepatch; 09/12/0902:06 AM. Reason: words
me 30 WAW 30 M 8 yrs T 9.5 yrs
3 cats 9,6,6
W left 5/31/09 W stopped most contact 06/26/09 W filed 7/22/09 (haven't been served)
