Well, I am not giving up, but I am going to let be what will be. I have already laid the groundwork, it seems, and if we stay together, great; otherwise, no matter what happens I'll soon be in a better place than I am right now.
I'm still somewhat scared, but at the same time I am finding an inner peace that things will be changing for me, and getting me out of this limboland. Either way, things ought to be better for me soon - although I'd prefer my W to be by my side.
So, we'll see. More to follow as it develops.
Me: 46 W: 46 M: 9.5 yrs D4, D9 D filed by her 11/3/08 Agrees to try rec at mediation 1/28/09 Says she still wants D in counseling 3/25/09 W and I back in DB counseling (!) 8/20/09 3rd Bomb 9/2/09
