In Limbo

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I will Gina B. Thanks. We are going to Retrou Oct 23rd. Not sure she is interested all that much yet on fixing herself. She was to go see a new therapist this week to work on herself..She cancelled becasue she had to work. She new about work and the appointment for a couple weeks. She could have changed it if she wanted, but she didn't...

Strange thing happened this week. Her asking me to sleep in the bed again. Been on the couch for 2 months. Just couldn't do it yet. I don't want to seem like she says jump and I say how high...I don't think it is because any intimacy would be forth coming. She said that she thought the couch is uncomfortable and we can both be adults about this. I just I can't yet because sleeping on the couch reminds me of where we are. Really, it is just hard sleeping next to someone knowing they have rejected you...I did give her a temperature check the other day when I asked her that the door is open, she can leave anytime. She said, she wants to work on herself(it has been 4 months-what the hell is she doing?). Sorry, I digressed. But that would be the first time I haven't gotten: Too little Too Late, I want a D, I'm done, etc...

It is funny when you have these conversations how one has a tendancy to over analyze the simple words or actions of people.

Computer addiction? Lets see, hang out with the family or look on the computer. What is he looking at on the computer? I always wondered about that with people. Sounds like he is trying to hide away in another little world. I try and spend my time with kids. She also refuses to do anything with my friends or family. So for the next few weekends she will be spending the day alone or with her divorced friends while I take our sons to the different events with my family and friends.

My wife spends a fair amount of time on facebook and houses. I am not an idiot, I know she is looking at costs of houses if we ever divorce. Sounds like a little progress is being made. Looking forward to hearing how Retrou goes for you.

Take Care.