WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

I'm having a crappy moment. I've been busy at work but things started to slow down. Now I just realized it's 9/11 today and it also clicked in my head it has been over a year since she gave up on our marriage. I know she exchanged pictures with a guy in Sept that she met on the internet and had a physical affair that started on Nov 7th last year. That means she emotionally walked away for more than a year now and physically walked away for almost 5 months

It hurts to think about it and I know I need to stop thinking about these type of things. It should make me mad knowing how cruel and aweful she has been but I am just really down.

I will see my boys in about 3 hours so that is something to look forward to

This is real crap. I was ok this morning but all this crappy thinking has made me feel alone all of a sudden. I know I'm not as I have my friends and family that will always love and support me and she is just one person. She should mean nothing to me now I know the truth. so why doesn't she?!?!