First off let me say that I really feel for you. Almost all of us here know the sting of rejection like that, and you have been dealing with it for a long time now. Not only that, but all the lying. Ug...
I do hope you will stick around here. I have found that digging into your relationship involves really looking into yourself more than anything, and it can be a life-changing experience if you are willing to approach it with an open mind. There are some really great people here, with much wisdom to offer.
Your situation is particularly tough, since you rely on him so much financially. Would it be too personal to request more information on your disability, and the limitations it imposes on your ability work and/or go out on your own? Also, how long have you had these health issues, from the beginning of the relationship, or more recently? No pressure to answer such questions if you would prefer not to.
I am out of time for now, but I will check back here again soon.
SF
Spellfire aka Mike
"Women do not like controlling men. They respect and are attracted to men who control themselves. They ultimately are repelled by men who allow themselves to be controlled." -S&A
