Oz I think you have hit the nail on the head! H was/is before all this happened a dear sweet man who wouldnt have said boo to a goose, it hit me hard but quick that I could no longer control/wrap this man around my finger so to speak, so for me the penny dropped quickly because it was so in my face.
As for what to say to him, its more a worry that I am DB'ing to the best of my ability which is the concern, the screaming, shouting, begging and throwing myself at him didnt work so the 180 is not too. My only worry is that it will be seen as getting my revenge which apparently what he has accused me of doing before..
Yesterday was about me realising that what I had allowed him to do to me, regardless of him being sweet and kind to make me feel so unwomanly was wrong and he had regardless of whether he meant to wittled away at me till I felt so ungirly and sexy! Even the fact that because of him not being interested in sexy underwear made me feel powerless to attract him.. Im not really explaining myself well, but Im sure you know what I mean.
I have some self respect and had always said I wouldnt accept used goods back again, but now I am realising that I may have already without knowing and yet if he is having an affair or living with someone is not brave enough to admit it, and tbh Im gonna make him tell me, he owes me that much at least!
Someone who does not know Im DB'ing complemented me on GAL and getting on with things which was nice today. And lots of compliments on how skinny I now look, which H did notice I looked good both times he visited.
Anyway its been a long day out so Im tired and probably not making a great deal of sense, thanks for stopping by ladies I will go check your sitchs and hope you have had a nice day!
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
