Journaling: Got home last night at around 6:30. H had just gotten home with the girls. He was moody. I asked him where he wanted to go to dinner, "oh, I'm not really hungry" (think to myself-Oh really, on your birthday...so you have either just gotten back from eating with OW or you have plans for a late dinner with OW).
He thanked me for the fossil. He really liked it - I said no problem, its from the girls. We talked a little about work while I got the girls grilled cheese sandwiches. He kept telling me about this one problem child in his class who acts out and I just kept thinking that's you bud.
After dinner we went outside and he commented on the fact that I'm smoking (I unfortunately started when he left- ironic since this was one of our M problems... I hated that he smoked, I had quit many years ago and I could not understand why he didn't quit). At any rate, his comment about smoking was weird b/c he said, well as long as you are not on birth control...are you on bc? (Now, he's had a vasc. and I haven't been on bc since 2001). I said no. I shouldn't even wonder why he asked since it makes no difference, but I just wonder if he is trying to feel me out about dating so that he can file D and have less guilt about the whole thing.
Then, outside, he turns to me and asks "why didn't you call me this morning" (for his birthday). I said, "I called this afternoon and left a voice mail". I hugged him and said happy birthday and that I was sorry that he didn't want to go out to dinner with me and the girls...I was going to take him to a new restaurant that just opened. He said "why didn't you tell me". I said, "I assumed you had a late dinner planned". He said "no, just beans and cheese at home". He tucked in the girls and stuck around until 9:00 before saying he was tired and went home.
Not too bad, except that by 9:30, I was a little tipsy and I called his cell phone to tell him cheers and happy birthday...well, he didn't answer. Guess he was with OW breaking his wedding vows.
SIGH...
HIW M 35 H 37 D 5, D 2 Married 1996 Dating 1992 Met 1988 EA/PA started March 2009 Bomb 6/16/2009 Separated 6/23/2009
